"Drink a little drank, smoke a little smoke..."

So I feel wonderful! I've had a very fufilling past couple days and I haven't felt this good, this upbeat in a long time.

I went to the gym yesterday after work and put in two hours, woke up at an ungodly hour this morning and put in two hours and I'm going to go back to the gym after work for another couple hours. I'm addicted to working out for multiple reasons. 1) I felt like crap when I woke up this morning but as soon as I got in there and started working out, I felt great! 2) I want to slim down as much as possible in the next week or so because Meghan got VIP tickets to Shepherd's for Memorial Day Weekend 3) I want to get down to a healthy weight because I'll look and feel better and 4) M. has already told me how proud he is that I'm putting in so much time and effort and him and I have been getting along great lately and I just want us to be in a good place. He's kind of like my reward...you set goals and work hard to achieve them and reward yourself in the end, my reward is happiness not only with myself but happiness in my relationship with him. He's been going to the gym everyday too and he's already lost some weight.

I'm drinking a ton of water, cut out soda completely. I went shopping today for work food, got some grapes, carrots, yogurt, lean pockets, pickles, blue corn tortillas and salsa, popcorn, and applesauce. I can't wait to get back in the gym this afternoon. One thing I've started to do that I really want to keep working on is running. I'm starting slow and light but eventually I'd like to get to the point where I can run a couple miles a day and start doing that in addition to my workouts in the gym. I spent some time last night putting good work out songs on my MP3 player.

The only thing plaguing me really and truly is money...or lack there of. I reached a settlement with one card today because it was either that or my file got sent to a lawyer. The battery in my car is literally on it's last leg. I have to pay that speeding ticket. I figure if I can make at least, at the VERY least $300 per check I'll be alright but right now, I'm scared. I know next week's check will be decently sized so I'm hoping to put 1/2 of it into my account. I have to pay off a payday loan from Amscot only to turn around and get another one 24hours after when I can. It's just irritating. I wish I had never gotten myself into this mess. I just want to pay off my cards and be done with it. I'm going to knock out the two small ones and be done with them, then I have 3 big ones left. =/ The whole thing just sucks.